Stefanie Sybens

“If only you could command your brain to actually do that. It would be cool to have some kind of remote control to switch off your thoughts. Thoughts off, Siri. Or, more positive thoughts, Si...”

“This body had been mine my entire life and it couldn't have felt more foreign.”

“I was merely a body that existed day in, day out. Breathing against the powerful waves of time.”

“To being far away from everything and everyone - Stefanie Sybens, Letters from the What-Went-Before”

“Drunk and alone and hopelessly in love with the idea that someday somehow it might just get better.”

“It was true. We were still soulmates.”

“I have to choose me.”

“I started crying because this would all disappear including me and no one seemed to realise it. Did no one feel what I was feeling.”

“She would have more room in her life for other things.”

“Ironic, isn't it? The moment you decide to kill yourself, you have never felt more alive.”

“Maybe love had always been outweighing death”

“I saw now that a part of me never felt good enough for anyone so I tried to be someone I wasn't.”

“I wanted to learn how to carry myself”

“I felt her hand squeezing mine while we sat there gazing under the same sky”

“There was so much good stuff, and all I could feel was the bad”

“Maybe I had changed and everything around me started changing as well”

“I didn't want to be in a relationship that required me to erase parts of who I was”

“No one had ever wanted me. And for some reason I didn't even want me anymore. I wished I could have stepped out of my body and given it back, like you do with a shirt that doesn't fit proper...”

“How could two people who were so lost be so complete together?”